this blog has gone down the drain. *waves*





ciao.
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[ 5:18 AM ]

had a sudden urge to blog today. just as wel,, considering i havent been blogging forever. and i absolutely adore Nat King Cole! especially L O V E. especially this part,

love is all that i can give to you
love is more than just a game for two
two in love can make it
take my heart and please dont break it
love was made for me and you

sweetness! its the simple songs like that that are really romantic.

havent been writing for a long time now. i used to love writing stories, still do. im just afraid that whatever i write will not be good enough, or as good as the last, and that just spoils the whole thing of it. i seriously envy those who can effortlessly write some really romantic, and funny. oh, and anyone who can write a really long entry and still make it interesting. thats something i still cant figure. in fact, i shall stop here, have nothing better to blog now.
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[ 8:11 PM ]

has been ages since i wrote again.

ndp practice was actually not bad, had a good day. i hardly ever say that, do i? lol. and there was adrain pang! he looks even better in person, really. HA.

woke up at some ungodly hour to do the laundry today. think i forgot to turn on the water though. hope i didnt screw the machine up.

have been getting into one of my weird moods again. it shows, doesnt it. its like i can say anything comprehensible at all. been reading the bible in bits lately. we were just talking about christianity and all that stuff at ndp. its weird actually. how do you believe in something that you've never even seen? or even hear? for all you know it could be fake. some guy fibs about something five thousand years ago, and no one knows the truth right?

and even if you can actually feel it, its just because you believe, isnt it? like if the same good thing happens to two people, one could be like, oh, its a gift from God, cos he believes. and the oher could be like, oh, i knew something GOOD would happen.

same logic for the whole believing thing.

its interesting, karmens thinking of being satanic. *envisions devil horns poking out of head. LOL. you know, those hairband things that they sell with the glow in the dark devil horns sticking out? pretty cute actually.

no one would actually know anyway. except for the when the whole world floods and we all die except for the strong believers thing. thats freaky. like, i remember my teacher saying something about that a long time ago and i actually got scared. except that she was all, be good and dont tell lies esque or you'll fry up in hell. okay, not her exact words, but something close.

i mean, just imagine everyone all burning in this big pot in hell. mmmm. it sounds like, cooking chicken doesnt it?

Devil one *fishes out half burnt human from pot*

Devil two *tastes flesh* this one needs a darker roast.

Devil one *dumps human back into pot*

dumb i know, but just a random example.

shall just leave things as they are now. have to go check the washing machine.
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[ 9:50 AM ]

It's the heart afraid of breakingthat never learns to dance
It's the one who won't be takenwho cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live
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[ 11:19 PM ]

another personality test, got it from my brothers poly text. interesting aint it, what they learn there. nothing like the boring old jc stuff. hahs.

this one's a phisy *pun not intended personality test, and im exactly in between a colourful guppy and a peaceful angelfish, HAH, which means that im relational. very much feeling and people oriented.

colourful guppy

shall just type in the basic stuff here

strengths

colourful, cheerful, cute ??? *big blank look, confident carefree, creative, enthusiastic, humourous, warm, interesting, encouraging, optimistic *yeah right, exciting

check points

playful in excess nods sheepishly hahs, naive, forgetful, fickle minded, over commited, lack perseverance and commitment, unpredictable, haphazard

keep in mind

time management, emotional control, pay attention to details

peaceful angelfish

strengths

calm, peaceful, mediating, amiable, kind, patient LOL, cooperative, non assertive, easygoing, agreeable and obliging for the most part, contented, consistent, pleasant, restrained, good listener

check points

overly compromising, aimless lacking in drive and ambition so very true, lack initiative, lazy was this made just for me? , too slow AHA , worrisome, pessimistic see this WAS made for me, indifferent

keep in mind

understanding that change is sometimes necessary, could provide opportunities, friendship isnt everything thought it is important, explore more efficient ways, not just the smae old ways, has to see value in oneself

pretty true, for some parts. lol.
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[ 12:12 PM ]

my heart will go on
love was when i loved you
one true time i hold you

saw you up close
but i missed
and you were gone
the chance was lost
if only there was
a once more
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[ 12:35 PM ]

S
stable, steady

general characteristics
good listener; team player okay this is true
possesive uh?? ah no.
steady; predictable hm. predictable, possibly? hahs.
understanding; friendly hahs. true.

value to team
reliable and dependable i guess?
loyal team worker hmm.
compliant towards authority perhaps too much so. i should rebel!
good listener; patient and emphathetic true.
good at reconciling conflicts thats provided if im not part of it. ha.

possible weakness
resists change true.
takes a long time to adjust to change very true.
holds a grudge; hm no. sensitive to criticism hm. true. hahs.
difficulty establishing priorities very very true. nods sheepishly.

cool aint it. love doing personality tests like this. and this is pretty much accurate too!

got a glimpse of our report card today, and this is nothing good. three fails! what the hell. poa forty nine point nine. miserable dud heads. denying me of a pass zero point one mark away. and yes, failed a and e maths. with tution, whats more! and to think i could still scrape a pass without tution last term. i am seriously in deep shit. wonder how moms reaction will be like. furiously angry, no doubt.

going to mj concert tomorrow. my last chance of freedom! went to mj with sandy yesterday, to get her concert ticket. and there was this guy at the booth. very cute! goes delirious. sandy must be sick of hearing me say how cute he is. hahs. lets hope i see him at the concert tomorrow. grin.

listening to the half recorded version of green days holiday now. music player in com is pretty much screwed, so song is only half way played. absolutely love that song! my favourite among all the green day hits. *thumbs up. the singer sounds a bit different, doesnt he?




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[ 6:47 PM ]